emails

I hate that we arent really talking right now. I miss having actual conversations. Do you really want me out of your life that badly? Is that why you insisted on trying to date every other girl than me? At least do me the decency of making me a list of everything you think is wrong with me so that i can look it over and see if i can change even though there is no hope for us anymore. You have made that abundantly clear to me. Still i hope one day...... Maybe one day you will realize that i am the one you want and you will stop making me cry and hurting me. Maybe that day will never happen. But i hope it does. And if it ever does i will still be here for you and still love you and want you. Until that day i cry myself to sleep because of how much it hurts to love you.