April Marie's Random Ramblings

I dont know why I bother with relationships. Maybe it is because I get lonely and friendships arent enough or I just get jealous of the fact that just about everyone else I know gets to be happy and with someone else. What do I get out of them? Cheated on and heartbreak. 4 years of trying for the same guy now and it seems he onlywants me when his other friends(mutual friends at that) arent around. Or his family. Since neither friends nor family approve of me. They barely tolerate me as his friend to begin with. Why I fell in love with him 4 years ago, I have no idea but for some reason I did. -sigh- I have to be the most pathetic person ever. And a hopeless romantic at heart.